Tuesday, January 24, 2006

I was recently arrrested for exposing myself

I'm a 44 y/o male--only recently FORCED by the Lord to deal with LONG- STANDING sexual issues--to be completely open w/you, I was recently arrrested for exposing myself to teen girls--just today before a judge I pleaded guilty to 20 felony charges and 9 misdmnr. charges....I've really been a mess for years--in talking w/ a counselor, I've admitted to having this desire since I was about 8-12 years old and actually did perform this act during those years---oh how I wish I was caught THEN and gotten help as a child...I plead guilty cause I didn't want to fight it anymore--I wanted ownership and responsibility--I DO face the possibility of prison--that's up to the judge and God's Mercy--first time (caught) offense--very thankful to God for stoppong the bleeding--I mean, WHERE does THAT come from at such an early age???--Also, I'm very scared about the prison part--I've looked up prison rape on the net and I fit every description of one that gets attacked ...Next, my wife is divorcing over this--ironically, we're getting along better than ever through this as God--as she descibes, has removed a barrier in me. We have expressed love for each other like never b-4,---she just can't deal w/ the stigma right now---we also have a son --13 y/o who has Obsessive Compulsive Dis.--He's not doing well w/ it through this either--however, he never wanted much to do w/ the Gospel b-4, but now has been FAR more open than ever before. Please pray that God will continue to turn what was meant for evil and turn it in to Glory for Him---I see His gand moving in marvelous ways already, please also pray for my wif's peace and security--she's obviously very nervous about finances through this too, and please pray God's mercy on me through the judge and MOSTLY, for Him to continue to purify my heart!!!