This man has no idea what depths I later sank to

If anyone could please pray for my uncle. He's got an unhealthy appetite for porn and I think one day it might just pass along to my nephew who I love like a little brother. This is the same uncle who years ago for my birthday presented me box full of porn. (we're talking a box the size of a television set here) this same uncle also took me out to a strip club and hired dancers for me. I will not lie to you I enjoyed myself at the time but this man has no idea what depths I later sank to and how hard I am trying to move away from that. I have no Idea how my aunt puts up with it, she's a fairly religious woman herself. CrushedWife if you are out there please help me understand. I am dumbfounded and maybe you could allow some insight into this for me. I had to visit him today and at the end of the night he came back to me with another offer for a visit to the strip club, there was an awkward silence and a polite refusal, and I drove off. On the drive home memories of that very same box, unceremoniously dumped somewhere off the side of the road.

It hurts when you've had more partners than your age

I've been with him for almost a year now, we've been friends for just a few months longer. I came from my mom's in St. Louis, I had lived there for four years. I've had alot of sex and i would be considered a "whore." I drank, I smoke, I got into a lot of fights. So I went to a rehab in St. Charles, Mo. And there I decided to move in with my dad. When I meet my boyfriend, i didn't want to go out with him. But I've been sober now longer than I ever have been. Yes, I have relapsed, but last time I did was the last time. I was drunk and got so mad and I tore up my friend's apt, they couldn't control me. It wasn't a good situation. But now I have only one problem with him. We've have sex, and wasn't not alot, maybe once a week. But I really know that my life wouldn't be as good as it is now without him. We talk so much, I can see my self with him. I won't break up with him, and we've been on a break from sex now for quite sometime, and that's when I got into porn. I dont want to talk to him about, afraid he'll think it's cool. It's not his fault but sometimes I just think if we we're having sex I wouldn't be watching these girls. I know how they feel. They like to be controled and humiliated, but they really hurt inside. It hurts when you've had more partners than you're age. So what should I do? What's worse choosing porn, or sex? Help me.