Tuesday, January 24, 2006
I was recently arrrested for exposing myself
I'm a 44 y/o male--only recently FORCED by the Lord to deal with LONG- STANDING sexual issues--to be completely open w/you, I was recently arrrested for exposing myself to teen girls--just today before a judge I pleaded guilty to 20 felony charges and 9 misdmnr. charges....I've really been a mess for years--in talking w/ a counselor, I've admitted to having this desire since I was about 8-12 years old and actually did perform this act during those years---oh how I wish I was caught THEN and gotten help as a child...I plead guilty cause I didn't want to fight it anymore--I wanted ownership and responsibility--I DO face the possibility of prison--that's up to the judge and God's Mercy--first time (caught) offense--very thankful to God for stoppong the bleeding--I mean, WHERE does THAT come from at such an early age???--Also, I'm very scared about the prison part--I've looked up prison rape on the net and I fit every description of one that gets attacked ...Next, my wife is divorcing over this--ironically, we're getting along better than ever through this as God--as she descibes, has removed a barrier in me. We have expressed love for each other like never b-4,---she just can't deal w/ the stigma right now---we also have a son --13 y/o who has Obsessive Compulsive Dis.--He's not doing well w/ it through this either--however, he never wanted much to do w/ the Gospel b-4, but now has been FAR more open than ever before. Please pray that God will continue to turn what was meant for evil and turn it in to Glory for Him---I see His gand moving in marvelous ways already, please also pray for my wif's peace and security--she's obviously very nervous about finances through this too, and please pray God's mercy on me through the judge and MOSTLY, for Him to continue to purify my heart!!!
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I have done this over years too. I was caught over doing it in front of an adult woman, and sentanced to probation. I did it in front of hookers when they would come to my car. I would pull off once they saw me masturbating. One time it was a cop. She saw me and asked with a voice of disgruntled irritation "what are you doin?" Then she asked me if I wanted to have fun. I said nothing. She watched a bit and asked, so you got any money or what? I produced 10 dollars, and she said "he actually has some money?" and she then signaled the cops and they pulled up and I was arrested for only solicitation. I have done it in front of people too young to know it was wrong. They gave me a rush. I grew really afraid. I didnt want to get caught. THAT would be a felony, and I would be sentanced to jail for sure! So I knew I had to stop, but HOW? My wife threatened to leave me. I was put in the paper for being arrested for exposing myself, and I lost my job. I got on meds. The thing that ticks me off is, ALL this help for sexual addictions is open to people IN jail, but in the outide world, its next to impossible to find a dr dealing in sexual addiction. This is thanks to the homosexual community's efforts to stop dr's from trying to change those that want to stop being homosexual. Once they got their way,thanks to homo dr's Within the American Psychological Association, Most sex therapy stopped all together!
NOW what do I do? I began getting into reading about preteens on the net or watching 3d art of it which is legal as well. But I think I am a time bomb at times. Although I dont have the guts to actually DO anything. The reason is God. I have a strong Godly tie. And THAT keeps me sane.
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