At the age of 5, I was raped by my oldest brother

I'm not sure how common my sex addiction story is. I thought I'd share it and see if anyone else can relate.

At the age of 5, I was raped by my oldest brother (13 at the time). It only happened once because I told my parents about it. I didn't remember it until I was 10. (I know I still had the memory of it, but it wasn't a conscious memory.)

When I was in junior high school, I was molested by my youth director's husband 2 or 3 times. When I told her about it, she confronted her husband. He, of course, denied doing it. About 10 years later, she came to me to apologize because she had found out he was molesting her youngest sister and had molested others as well.

From junior high on, I dealt with same-sex attraction and was involved with a girl when I was in high school. Our relationship was never more than kissing and heavy petting. My SSA has been pretty well defeated. With God's help, my counselor's help, and prayers by many friends, I have overcome that. Sometimes, I'll see a pretty woman and have some kind of SSA thought, but I'm able to tell Satan to bug off and it doesn't take over my thinking.As a senior in high school, I was date raped twice within a matter of days by the same guy. He was an older friend that I thought of as a brother. It took many years for me to be able to admitt that what happened was rape.

Off and one since junior I have dealt with thoughts of sexually abusing a younger child. I'm currently dealing with those same thoughts, only they are directed at my own children. I HAVE NEVER TOUCHED A CHILD INAPPROPRIATELY. My counselor is aware of this and were starting the process of dealing with these thoughts and feelings.

To make matters worse, someone reported these thoughts to CPS (Children's Protective Services) this past Saturday, so they are investigating it. Since I've not touch the kids and am doing things to not set myself up for a fall, we're all still home. I feel so betrayed and hurt. Someone I confided in has betrayed me.

It's been several years since I've looked at any porn (online or off). Again, I know it's been with God's help that I've not done so.

My husband is aware of what I'm dealing with and is being very supportive.Has anyone else dealt with similar thoughts? Please tell me I'm not the only one.

Police: Mother gives daughter to boyfriend for sex

MUSKEGON HEIGHTS, Michigan (AP) -- A woman who feared she would lose her boyfriend while she recuperated from surgery arranged for her 15-year-old daughter to have sex with him, authorities said.

Police said the three signed an agreement specifying the sexual services the girl would perform and the compensation she would receive, including clothing and body piercings. The 37-year-old man and the girl had sex about 20 times over two months, police said.

"It's incredible that any parent would be involved in such a blatant case of abuse against her own daughter," prosecutor Tony Tague told The Muskegon Chronicle for a story published Thursday.

Authorities investigated after the girl talked to another adult, said police Detective Calvin Mahan.

The woman was freed on $25,000 bond after being arraigned on three counts of third-degree criminal sexual conduct.

The boyfriend, Michael J. Fitzgibbon, was being held without bail. He was arraigned last week on six counts of first-degree criminal sexual conduct.

It was unclear Thursday whether Fitzgibbon had an attorney.

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