7 Years of Running Porn Sites

My name is Eugene,

for the last 7 years I have been an adult website ownerthis past year I have devolped severe depression and anxietyattacks (the depression and anxiety has wrecked my physical health)...My body aches all over my spirit feels completely crushed under the wheight of this blackness (sin)The majority of my anxiety attacks I have occured while'working' at my desk (I no longer work with porn).I have had two recent hospital stays for depression, one of them for attempted suicide. I have developed this hatred towards myself for the things I have done (I am not proud of who I have become), not ever considering the amount of harm I have done to the thousands and thousands of people who have visited and purchased items through my websites or to the families that could have been or have been destroyed because of my sin.This past week I have accepted Jesus as my personal savior....I have deleted all of my porn sites (over 300,000 images and videos)I prayed to God to give me guidence as to what to do with my domain urls - he told me to point the way to salvation with my most popular website.I am now redirecting traffic from one of my largest TGP sites ( http://smutmut.com/ , with over 14,224 unique visitors every 3 weeks) to http://xxxchurch.com/ - and have removed all other urls from my godaddy.com accountThese sites were how I made ends meet, as far as what I am going to do now for money... I am not sure right now but I know this much...God has a BIG plan for me.Pornography is no longer an option for meI can honestly say that pornography will 'kill'you emotionally spiritually and physically inevery sense of the word. It doesnt matter ifyou are a consumer, a producer or a porn actor...sooner or later the blackness will find you and consume you.the following photo is a box full of all my 'contacts' (emails, phone numbers, website addresses... etc.)and about 300 cds worth of adult content amounting to over500,000 images and countless video files.. http://smutmut.com/ps1.jpg

Pornography addiction is a whole body illness.